Bae! Just So You Know…

…you don’t come first.

I won’t lie, I’ve been longing and hoping, praying and waiting for when you’ll come.

I have so much plans for us that will blow your mind.

Yet, you do not come first.

You’ve never been first to begin with. I’ve been involved in a couple of relationships with beautiful memories, ones I’ll always treasure, even adventurous ones that made me wilder. Eventually, I learned enough to make me better. God made me better.

Those depressive nights where the bottle was my friend, but not anymore. I sleep like a baby now; not with interrupted cries, milk then back to bed cycle… but soundly. Hmph! My major testimony.

Bae! So you know, my Ga-ness emerges unannounced. I try. I try to suppress it but t isn’t as bad anyway. It’s not the uncouth Ga-ness, but then the little deliberate squabbles, the occasional aggressiveness [I promise to put it into good use, when there’s just you and me]Β  πŸ˜†

I’ll be very much disturbed if you do not have friends. I doubt there’s a nicer way to say this, but well, I do not want you to build your world around me. If you don’t get this, then it’ll be hard for us to get along.

The list is endless, but then you’re likely to get the impression of me being vain and picky.

All I’m saying is, you do not come first, God comes first, because β€œfor do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ”-Galatians 1:10